Ever since puberty I have had fantasies about being tied up in all sorts of creative ways. These fantasies became intertwined with sexual fantasies. I was under the impression that it was all about sex, and it was weird, so I never told anyone about them, until a few things opened my mind and aroused my curiosity.
A couple years ago I was attending an energy session, where people took turns being the subject lying on a massage table while everyone else walked around the subject's body, feeling the energy. Then they would talk about what they experienced. When it was my turn to be the subject, one of the ladies was embarrassed to say what she saw because it didn't make sense. We assured her that this had nothing to do with logic and sense.
She saw me all tied up, possibly in an ancient Egyptian setting. I was surprised and shocked that my secret was showing through. It opened my mind that maybe this drive may be a lot deeper and more important than I imagined.
Over the next few weeks I slowly started telling some most trusted friends and family members about my drive. I came out of the closet about it. Now I am actively experimenting and trying to untangle the many intertwined threads that feed this drive.
Rather than treat it as something to hide, i am treating it as a gift, a cosmic connection, a way to learn and to feel.
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This blog is about a small part of who I am, but that part needs a voice. This is a place to rave and marvel about my occasional inner drive to be tied up, and all the cosmic power, theories, philosophies, techniques and observations that go with it. Perhaps even find other people who have similar things to share.
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- Male in my mid 50s. Very happily married with lots of family. Creative, technical, philosophical. The universe works well with me. Things tend to become what I ask for. Life is good. (mostly)
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